my dream #2

i just now woke up i feel like i have to get this out of my mind hopefully this will help i just had  dream my dreams aren't normal i had nothing but nightmares for as long as i could remember but sometimes it be normal but getting to the point 

i was with some friends we were chatting about a lot of stuff i can't remember but then we started about wedding dresses how I'm about to get married to this guy right next me i have no idea who he is he's a stranger to me. but he started to talk to them about how i don't like he long types of dresses they seem to weird on me i was like oh whatever I'm looking something i like then i started to think about David how this just now started to hit me how I'm starting to regret this and how more and more times passes by then i start to this i can't do this i love David i want to be with me. 

then i woke up

a dream like this concerns me i worry about it I'm kinda one of those people who think dreams mean something. this i don't know what if its trying to tell me something /.\ then what do i do. i just don't know anymore. hopeful it means nothing it just a dream. i don't want it to mean anything so i won't let it mean anything i won't think about it anymore, it doesn't mean anything there it should stay in the back of my mind haunting me. waiting to resurface. it will problemly be back i know it will if i know anything about my dreams they always come back in one way or another. my dreams do nothing but repeat themselves.

i have to end this here i have a lot of stuff to do. /.\ so i hope everyone has a great day don't let anyone ruin it wether there in your life or in your dreams. i hope your doing amazing 

Love Rylee~

tv talk

i like to watch bunch of reality show, i don't watch a lot but i watch enough lol I'm curious and I'm bit nosey so if i want to know something my curiosity kicks in i will found out no matter what. one of my favorites to watch is snookie and jwoww. I'm watching there last season i found it interesting because now they both have babies now and they just makes me laugh there so funny i used to watch them jersey show omg that show was crazy. there a lot of drunking moments and really bad fights but a lot of drama. i like drama i just don't want to be in it. in high school i always manages to get in the middle of drama but i never tried to get in the middle i just don't know what happened. oh well lol I'm trying to type and watch tv on my laptop i type little and and then i watch the show I'm kinda forgetting what I'm talking about BUT oh so i have this best friend we been friends for over 16years we only had 3bad fights in our life time thank god. i have an amazing idea for her birthday coming up well its in april but i have get started soon. but anyways she has a lot come online friends she's met few times they live out of town so they don't get to hang out a lot but I'm going to send them her birthday card there going to sign it and bring it back its going to be sweet and she's just going to love it. ^.^ i did something long time ago when we were in middle school we went to different school even thro we lived across the street from each other we were still really close but i had bought a card and had all my friends signed it she didn't know any of them it was funny she loved it. i think she love this one more if it was her closet friends sign it. it just sounds amazing i hope sending it places won't cost a lot.  I'm excite i have to send it to Britain the UK it is so far away >.< it should cost much right? its just a little card. 

well even know its almost 5 o'clock dinner here in this house is really early so I'm going to go and eat so i hope lol so good night everyone or i hope the rest o your night are amazing ^.^ lol i see this kinda short but its ok i have more stuff to talk about i just don't want to talk about all in one day then o won't have anything else to talk about over time to you guys.

Love Rylee~

turkey day! & little bit of pokemon?

so as everyone knows ^.^ thanksgiving is coming up fast man I'm excited for it then I'm not excited for it. i have a broken family my parents are together but they still talk to each other like friends i guess thats what u can call it. since i live with my boyfriend and his parents that just makes more house to go to in since one day. i have about 4 to 3 houses to go to for thanksgiving all in he day and god i hate it. i have my moms house, my grandma G from my moms side of the family and then my other grandmas house and then i have to go get here where I'm living, >.< its just stressful and fatting becuz they make me eat at ever single house. there no getting out of it. i love thanks giving because of the food. i love turkey and the honey glazed ham and the pumpkin pie. its just so yumm. its a pain but now i have to drag my boyfriend with me because if i don't i get the where your boyfriend at? why isn't he here?? lol its like they except him to be with me at ever family event now because we been saying a hole 1 year and 9months now. but yea stressful. BUT OMG the new pokemon game is coming out Friday and I'm so excited because i preorder it and cant wait to go get it. I'm going to be stuck on it all day and and all night it doesn't take me long to finish the games. frankly i think there running out of ideas for pokemon. i mean i love the last game but the pokemon >.> there not the same anymore i mean come on whats with the trash bag looking pokemon thats not even... i mean its just erm. its disappointing thats all. i don't want them to stop but they need to stop. its going to get to the point where its just getting old and no one going to want to play the games anymore. they remade an old game? whats up with that?? i loved ruby and sapphire just the way they were. i played sapphire i loved all the water pokemon then and the contests were amazing but now I'm a fire pokemon trainer i power lol. i do indeed how a favorite fire type and mine is Arcanine <3 i have a thing for one of the eevee evolutions umbreon there my top to favs they are unstoppable team lol. but anymore still super excited i can't wait. huge pokemon fan. <3

dumdumdum i think ill call there it for today my boyfriend will be home soon i want to be gone with this before he gets home. still no one knows about it. i want to keep that way. i don't want anymore knowing about its me. lol oh well I'm having a lovely night and i hope you are two. <3 soo have a amazing night 

Love Rylee~

long time

i dont blog all the time I'm trying to get use to doing it because i really want to blog it makes me feel better, helps me get everything off my mind. >.> but yea no promise iv been doing nothing but playing video games. mostly minecraft now. i like to play online minecraft with my friends lol i have a friend who lives in Britain he has an amazing accent it just makes me melt i love it. i have a huge thing for accent. funny i don't like him at all he's not that cute. but he so sweet and funny when i talk to him i am in such a loving mood i wanna hug everyone. i love hugs there so tight and warming. i don't know. but as you all know xmas is coming up and thinking of what to get people is so hard especial when my boyfriends birthday is in the same month. so his birthday Dec 11 and xmas is 25th. >.< i have to think of 2 gift to give him and lucky me i thought of one to get him. so one down one more to go ^.^. i was talking to my x-bf where going to hang out soon. i really want to see him but a feeling i have in the bottom of my stomach is saying no its wrong to go see him. but i need to see him. i have so many things i wanna ask him and so many stuff i wanna talk to him about more i think about it the more nervous i get. but oh well whatever happens, happens. i been playing minecraft so much I'm super beside on all my anime and tv shows and some of my manga. i really need to catch up so badly. i think i might spend the night doing it hopefully i could at least knock out the anime and catch up thats most important to me. I'm watching this one its called Your Lie In April. it so good this  about this guy who can't play the piano anymore because he can't hear it, he still has his hearing it just not the same when he plays for himself and this girl who's a violist, little buy little she helps him bring back the spirt in him and helps hi play the piano again. I'm hoping they fall in love! they are so cute together, but the girl likes his best friend and he likes her. the boy likes her idk how she feels about him. rnq3igfbrgi4y idk it just so good you have to check it out.

i think umma  end this here for now i need to take a shower and start catching up on my shows. ^.^ so then i have more time to play video games. woo i love video games but man does it take up a lot of my time because i don't want to put it down. but anyway Good Night Everyone 

Love Rylee~

tattoos & piercings

so i was thinking of getting a industrial piercing but it turns out when i went down there and see all that stuff i don't have the right type if ear lol my ear is i guess flat in a way you couldn't put the bar in on one side of my ear its flat there no where to put it. soo i was disappointed i was looking forward to getting it done with my best friend but oh well but i woulda got it done to where they bend it little downwards to its at a angle but after thinking about that i decide no that but then i wouldn't be able wear a lot of bars it seems like i would have to spend more money so it wasn't worth my time or my money oh well there still tattoo i want to get i don't want to say tramp stamp but i want it on my lower back. its not a trampy tattoo and frankly i hate that word >.> makes me feel trampy for getting on down there but yea anyways i drop it out my self 4 or 6 years ago i basely poured my heart into this tattoo i don't think its going to be cheap i want it in color. with dark red black and a certain white color but not pure white but a maybe sandy white kinda like mummy bandages on there a certain i guess dirty color lol, I'm not good with color my best friend an artist when i say its blue she says no thats navy blue or midnight blue. you can just see me roll my eyes i be like same thing blue. she argue no this and that but oh well anyway yeah i have that tattoo in mine but ever time I'm in a tattoo place i forget to bring it with me so i can get a price range in how much its going to be. i don't want it small i don't want it to big either so it's gotta be just right (says goldilocks). paying for it going to be hard tho i have no job experience so finding a job its hard for me even in this town it seems like there no jobs ugh what a pain. i know i would do amazing in store that have to do with animals i know a lot and i learn fast when it comes to animals if only they give me a chance but all they see is no job experience next. what a pain that is plus i can't drive so I'm worried about that I'm trying to find something close to me. if i would drive i would find something lil further out but i can't I'm learning how to drive little by little. 

thats all thats on my mind today anyways I'm getting hungry its like 1:34 i been awake for maybe 2 hours i haven't eaten i don't really know what to eat there not a lot here in this house. i bought this big cork board i guess is what they call it for my boyfriend room he has a smaller one everything on his walls seems to have a place its mother doing my walls were like shit everywhere you couldn't see my walls. but yea i bought this big board so i can put replace is i could put some of my stuff on it and he can put more on it. idk i need to go shopping for shampoo and all that girly stuff I'm running low before i go and blow whats left of my money on junk i need certain things 1st ^.^ yupyup anyways Have a great day everyone!

Love Rylee~

the day

so i spent all day yesterday trying to book a hotel for LA Anime Expo ^.^ for 2015 I'm supper excited this will be our 3rd time going. the 1st time was just me and my best and then the 2nd time was me my best friend, my bf and hers now its going to be me her and my bf. you would think 3rd wheel bad and all that but we are all very close friends and there is no 3rd wheel. i won't allow there to be one. i know what its like to be a 3rd wheel it feels so bad. i hate it i make sure my best friend and my bf get equal attention. but yea were booked the hotel all we got to do is get tickets. were going for all 4days this time. 

I'm going to cosplay at this one I'm getting it specially order off this website call Darling Army. this is the cosplay I'm ordering. isn't it cute? i love it. i even have the big Edward Elric jacket. my jacket is signed by some of the cast of Full Metal. I'm trying to get it fully signed by the hole cast but that will take awhile. i can wait. i got it signed by 4ppl so far. getting this cosplay is hard she except 20 order at a time. and I'm wearing to my town anime convention in January. i picked the wrong time to order it to. its close to Christmas so she's going to super packed I'm hoping to order it this Saturday thats when she be open for order. I'm so excited for all the stuff to come. 

i can't wait for anime expo! ^.^ and February 14, is my 2year anniversary I'm so excited because i love my boyfriend so very much i never had a relationship where it lasted this long. my ex-boyfriend doesn't count cuz we were on and off for 3years never lasted more then a 3months. i gotta end this here my boyfriend asleep he just rolled over >.> no one knows about this blog its secret. soo Good Night Everyone

Love Rylee~

The Dog

so there this dog that lives in my neighbor and i love dogs don't get me wrong but he barks all day long and and all freak night it is soo annoying you have no idea its like bark bark bark bark. i'm just like ugh i sleeping here seriously ever now and then he would stop but he barks all the time i don't want to call someone about it i guess if u call you ever have to move out or get rid of the dog. i don't want to be that person. i don't even know who lives in the house or what house it is i would have to walk around and look to see. it sounds like the dog is outside all the time. i don't know if anyone actually spends time with the the poor thing. what if he barking because he's lonely i just don't know. i don't understand why this isn bugging anyone else i guess they can sleep at night. i guess it this happened a neighbor someone called because there little dog was barking none stop and someone went to there door and complained about it they moved out. my boyfriends family was worried about my dog she's a little breed i guess little breeds are yappers they call it. my dog is not a yapper she's bark at ppl who knock at the doors and other dogs ever now and then but she's os very quiet for a chihuahua mix. witch i am quite happy thank you very much. oh well I'm sure someone will complain  one day. i have bunch of game systems, i have ps2, ps3, wii, gamecube, N64 DS, and 3DS, i take good care of my stuff thats a lot of systems a lot of controllers and bits and so much dust >.< since i moved in with my boyfriend they play my ps3 i wasn't worried about it til my controller started to break witch pissed me off so bad i never broken a controller. his brother witch i have found out as a temper when he loses and slams my controller against the floor. he's a stubborn asshole and cheap. he's never going to replaces a 50 dollar controller. ps3 controller are not cheap so i payed for a new one spent 60bucks and got a 2year warranty I'm not going to tell him i got a new controller he can use the broken one ill keep the new one for myself. this is annoying i shouldn't have to keep a separate stash of game stuff for myself. but its whatever stops me from spending anymore money. 

i think I'm done for the day imam go back to my game ^.^ I'm doing amazing in she is super powerful I'm taking my time on the story mode of the game i do other stuff stuff i can master, I'm trying to make a lot of money so i can new armor. its not cheap >.> i wish it was but sadly its not. have an amazing day!

Love Rylee~

Happy B-late halloween

sorry it was halloween and my best friend came over we had a few drinks i forgot to blog. soo iv been thinking of getting a industrial piercing I'm actually going to go thro with it my best friend id going to get one with me its going to be fun. I'm more scared about the cleaning i wanna clean it right so it doesn't swell up real bad bleed ton. i don't wanna mess that up. ever tell me its hurt then other tell me no i didn't hurt at all. they said that about my belly ring to. that didn't hurt at all. so i don't think its going to hurt I'm worried about it. I'm going to get it done next week thats when my friend get paid. yea I'm excited and nervous at the same time. iv been talking to my ex and we are going to met up and talk. I'm excited but I'm very noise and curious person i wanna know whats been going on with him and his crazy ex and there twins. i wanna know why he shut me out for a year and then finally message me and wants to hang out. i know its stupid of me to go back to my ex boyfriend but were just friends and nothing more all my feeling fly out the door when he shut me out for the year. so I'm finally over that. lets me what else happened. oh i went shopping for clothes for the 1st time in 1years. i didn't get much i don't like shopping i got few shorts and a new sports bra i love it my sports bra its so comfortable to year! i hate wearing bras now. all i wear around the house is my sports bra and maybe when i go places to. >.> so yea lol.

im not sure what to talk about my game is going good. i still love it. my cats a jerk she stares at me from across the room. she doesn't wanna cuddle me anymore she cuddles my boyfriend more then she cuddles me. i think she's pisses off at me because i tap her on the head over and over when she try to stick her head in my food. it makes me so mad when she does that. i don't want car hair in my food I'm trying to eat. she knows not to eat my food but she eats everyone elses. she's eats like there no tomorrow. she's not homeless anymore food not going anywhere. i don't get animals something. but whatever they do what they will. she eats lil twice a day because she's getting fat. the only problem i really have with her is that she catches up the couch ill run  after her and say no! mittens she run away then go to the other one and do it. I'm just like seriously you ass cat. i love her to death but man she's mean to me. i hope everyone had amazing day yesterday I'm off to the shower. Good night!

Love Rylee~